hi i'm bored. school starts up again in a few weeks. I have a boyfriend.my name is still lauren.


1. I’ve come to realize that my chest-size. . .
is amazing ,i have references gay and straight who agree

2. I’ve come to realize that my job. . .
sucks and isnt my passion ,thank god im almost done with school

3. I’ve come to realize that when I’m driving. . .
i dont daydream anymore

4. I’ve come to realize that I need. . .
more money,im seriously the most low budge ive ever been

5. I’ve come that realize that I have lost. . .
someone I really loved, its ok and for the best im in a good place now but it does not mean I dont think about W.J or that im not still at times hurt that it didn't work out.

6. I’ve come to realize that I hate it when. . .
people try to "fix" my problems, i take it offensively,im quite capable of helping my damn self
7. I’ve come to realize that if I’m drunk. . .
im just as fun as I am sober

8. I’ve come to realize that money…
fucks everything up

9. I’ve come to realize that certain people. . .
should eat a dick

10. I’ve come to realize that I’ll always. . .
have great hair

11. I’ve come to realize that my sibling(s). . .
uh are lucky im their sister

12. I’ve come to realize that my mom. . .
is where I got my sense of humor,not my dad

13. I’ve come to realize that my cell phone. . .
is annoying to type on

14. I’ve come to realize that when I woke up this morning. . .that my boyfriend isnt snoring as much
15. I’ve come to realize that last night before I went to sleep. . .
that i give great head,but actually i already knew that

16. I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking. .
game recognize game
17. I’ve come to realize that my dad. . .
is a good fucking dude but sometimes like now i dont appreciate him

18. I’ve come to realize that when I get on Facebook. . .
i am on ...facebook?

19. I’ve come to realize that today. . .
chicken and waffles are really great together

20. I’ve come to realize that tonight. . .
i could eat more chicken and waffles
21. I’ve come to realize that tomorrow. . .
i dont want to do a damn thing
22. I’ve come to realize that I really want to. . .
travel more

23. I’ve come to realize that the person mostly likely to repost this is. . .
someone who is just as bored as I am?

24. I’ve come to realize that life. . .
never works like you planned it out to be

25. I’ve come to realize that this weekend. . .
is going to be full of obligations per usual

26. I’ve realized the best music to listen to when I am upset. . .
is slayer, bc evil takes away sadness

27. I’ve come to realize that my friends. . .
are fun and funny and make the day sunnier
28. I’ve come to realize that this year. . .
had some big doozles but then came sunshine
29. I’ve come to realize that my exes. . .
except like 2 who rule,are all horrible human beings and totally mistreated me
30. I’ve come to realize that maybe I should. . .
bring back more of my tough side, ive been too nice

31. I’ve come to realize that I love. . .
my nipples and maybe my vagina is really awesome

32. I’ve come to realize that I don’t understand. . .
lazy people

33. I’ve come to realize my past. . .
was super fun i took shit up to 11

34. I’ve come to realize that parties. . .dont happen as often at my age

35. I’ve come to realize that I’m totally terrified. . .
of not a whole lot,oh i dont like ants

36. I’ve come to realize that my life. . .
is just really beginning

WALLENBERGGGG

So hmm since last update:


me and the dude who I was dating broke up.Well I don't know if you could call it a real breakup,it was more of a he needs to get some stuff together and I let him go do that without following.

We hadn't seen each other in a few weeks ,but then we ran into one another twice this past week.

The first run in was weird but not really.I was uncharacteristically nice despite any frustrations I had.

But then Saturday...Saturday made me melt and made me feel like I don't know ,maybe in the future we really may have a chance.


So I was with friends but we were broke so we went to go pilfer alcohol from my friend Kellys parents house. The boy was over there socializing with her brothers. I guess I was acting hyper to the point he assumed I was intoxicated.Later on in the evening when i was in fact intoxicated we called back over to the house saying we were coming to get more wine.Kellys brother Sean said,"no stay there... Will is going to bring over wine because he doesn't want Lauren driving drunk."


I was shocked.I was also totally all gooey inside.He came over and I was all,"to what do we owe this honor??".


"well you were singing and stuff so i figured you were drunk and I didn't think it was safe for you...uh or anyone else...to drive."

I laughed and smiled and said,"thats so sweet...but did you know I hadn't even had anything to drink at that point?".


I know he cares,the feelings mutual. He needs to get his life in order. I'd really enjoy when that happens being able to be there alongside him. I don't know man...I really like heart this one and shit,flaws and all.

mood: calm

I haven't written here since the fifth of July.jesus fucking christ.I guess its time to at least give some sort of update.


1.i'm in my second year of art school at the academy of art . I actually got into san francisco art institute (which is such an honor ),but their curriculum is very different and so most of my completed coursework wouldn't transfer I am opting to stay put.maybe i will look into grad school down the line there, or maybe ill move to new york once and for all and do that at sva.I'm bummed but I just don't want to start all over after Ive done so much already.

2.I'm dating someone!!!

and it's so wonderful to say its nobody I have dated before either!

He is tall(6'5), dark(half mexican!) , and handsome.And totally stylish (he has done a lot of retail work including having been a manager of Kenneth Cole for some time).On top of all these aesthetic based things,he is really smart, very funny,and ...gasp...TREATS ME NICELY!! what a goddamn concept. It probably sounds hilarious ,but if you know me know me you know the absolute assholery I've dealt with for most of my dating life.things have always been kinda on the funky side .

this guy says nice things to me even when we aren't about to have sex. he holds my hand in public even in front of all his macho ass friends(and he is pretty darn macho himself). we have great conversations but im also able to feel safe and secure during any silent moments.


it's been going on for 2 months now, there was one brief intermission when he had to go take care of a friend going through a rough patch in santa cruz, and I missed him while he was gone,but i think the time apart solidified for me just how much I really like him.we communicate well, and honestly .I adore him even when he and his friend get together and watch youtube videos with apache helicopters blowing up targets and they make their own bro-commentary.

kinda awws and shit




3. this dude I have known since elementary school is a yankee!




my favorite justin story is regarding the 1989 earthquake. we were at recess and the weather was very warm and humid and unusual that day. I was bitching about it and justin said,"this is earthquake weather"

i had never heard of such a thing ever and i told him he was a retard.


i guess i ended up being the retard because a few hours later-BOOM EARTHQUAKE


4. i love my neighborhood so much ,but man the spike in crime as of late is making me so sad

5.i love barry zito


ok time for mad men!

xoxo

I love 4th of July so much it's stupid. I think its my all time favorite holiday.It has all the best elements of life,copious amounts of booze ,hot dog consumption, and illegal fireworks.My crew had a shitload and we went nuts on the streets.Even got caught lighting some by undercover cops but somehow they let us go,thank the lord.


I love being drunk,I think its so great.It's just the bloated and gross after effects the next day I hate with a passion. I still knock on wood dont get hangover usually, but I get dehydrated overs and just that all day feeling of tiredness and sack of shit feelings.I did combat that slightly today because I had left my car in Portrero Hill,on Bryant and 20th ,so I took a walk this morning to get it.It was a good walk and very nice to be up and in the early morning air.I felt like I had kicked my day after drinking monster away but then when I got home i was back to feeling like a sack of shit and went to sleep for three hours.Now im still semi zombie even after another walk this evening to get dinner. my friend curtis wants me to come over and hang out , but I dont even really want to move but im too unsettled to just go back to bed.

alright i guess i'm gonna go play videogames with curtis. remind me when i update next (whenever that is) to talk about my current battle again with my femininity ,namely how I seem to be reverting to my old tomboy ways.im weird bye!

you know that movie where drew barrymore divorces her family,that movie was awesome.

I want to do that too...well actually only male people in my family(except for jesus eric...he is a nice dude ,weird but so nice and means well).

I cant wait till I get interviewed for some magazine in my future and I air dirty laundry , illustrating the dysfunction I went through that like made me the person I am and shit. people love those sorts of things you know?


Now all I have to do is be homeless for a while and take up a heroin addiction that ALMOST kills me. That would be the clincher heeee


In other news I think I have narcolepsy or some sort of something problem. I am always tired , and last night I really blew it. I was supposed to go to my friend natalie's birthday bar thing. Around 7 pm im like,"hmm ill just put my head down for a second and take a cat nap".Next thing you know it was past midnight.OOPS

mea culpa

pretty girl

ive been making super silly but cute collages with photoshop.here is one for my friend christina

ive been making super silly but cute collages with photoshop.

ive been making super silly but cute collages with photoshop.my ode to rick astley

ive been making super silly but cute collages with photoshop.here is cheri!

ive been making super silly but cute collages with photoshop.i really like this one

ive been making super silly but cute collages with photoshop

oops